Lost in time in my space

Okie dokie....here i am, again...

This time i plan make it a habit to update my blog of every single instance in my life making the most advanced blog the humankind has ever seen. Presenting you ....MY LIFE...ta da....

So there have been lotsa things happening in my life and recently i had to depart with a very close associate of mine. It was pretty hard to let go, but then things had to change and i had to switch off (maybe forever) my beloved cell phone Sony Ericsion K700i.

I was happy with my K700i, but then the "3" key was not working and the joystick was limping and the camera had given up all hopes.

This time i got myself a stylish HTC Viva Touch. The handset has a cool style and i bought it the instance i saw the model. Its sleek, gray looking and all touch screen based. I have been taking photos and changing the wallpaper of the handset everyday.

So how have u been so far ?

lost of words, lost of thoughts,
lost in the midst of all sights,
i breath a low and breath a sigh,
whats happening to my world of high.

times change to make a new day,
you and i just in a our own way,
making a lot of whats today,
with a small sight to see faraway.

make this place a new home,
cure the world its bleeding now,
i am no one if its not the bow,
with a welcome so warm i call thee.

Random thoughts are floating today, thought will write it in my journal.
BTW how are you people doing...whats been happening so far???
i will be happy to see your line...

This is a note that i had written on an other community, pasting it here just for your thoughts and comments.

its a complex thing, this life and death. well there are a hundred ways to look at it. Just like every different human beings on this planet, so are the different ways to think and imagine about life and death.

Life is ofcourse the act of human procreation and there is nothing much to talk about it. People have sex, make babies and then comes life. But death is such a complex topic, i have never seen a baseline for which the discussion can cease. Well, among all those hundreds of thoughts, here goes mine:

Of all the ancient scriptures and texts that ever existed in humanity, always kept death as a subject of grief that produced a significant amount of thought and fear. People die, and so do any other living creature on this planet. In my way, thinking in a scientific direction, i will call it as 'degeneration of carbon'. Its biological, a body that cannot sustain itself beyond a point of threshold, gives way and destroys itself into its basic elements.

But being a person, whose much of childhood has been spent by listening to spirituality and philosophy, it provokes an intense thought about what death all about. I have heard people learning about their death earlier. I have seen people killing themselves. I have seen great sages, attaining moksha (its soul leaving the body and thats another greater topic). But when it comes to understanding it, there is no end to this mystery.

When a person dies, his memory lives along with others. And thats what i think is the link. People tend to follow what others have done and do what they think is right or wrong in their own sense. And thats what i call life after death. One persons deeds or thoughts are followed by others who read about it or learn about it. Dont you think that lives on. I humbly believe so.

A persons clothes, his memory, his thoughts, his speech, his breath, just lives on. People who find similar characters or similar behavior in an other person, think to feel the person is reborn. Life after death is just a thought that has left behind hundreds of years of writing and hundred of peoples thoughts, just for us to think about it !

boy i wonder how long has it been since i came online after my wedding. looks like i was busy all this while trying to sink myself into the new relationship. so all i can say its good and going on fine so far ! we've been busy visiting places and going around here and there. frankly, i have'nt spent much time with my wife. i just want to get out from all this noise and get lost on an exotic island somewhere far...

hmmm...feel a bit relaxed when i write in LJ...chal then i'll catch ya later..chao !

what is the difference between brain chemistry and physics of love ? well i think basically they will just equate themselves for a big smile on my face. recently i have been spending more time than i have ever done in all my lives, over the mobile phone. calling up my fiance ;)

yeah, thats what is keeping me busy these days. all the time that was left out for myself and the do_nothing_lazy time slot has now been assigned to making calls to my new love. we just speak and speak for hours together. the best part is, when both of us meet, there is a lot of observable silence...its kinda funny, you spend so much time talking over the phone, but when you meet up, what happens ?

that gap is slowly getting filled up as there is just 35 days left for my wedding...yeah 35 days according to a calendar written down so patiently by one of my friend, i guess its braindead_itsme...oh boy u shud've seen them taking all opportunity to pull my leg....yeah i am gonna get my chance tooo ;)

so thats all thats going on right now..have been going around to get things done and purchases for the wedding...seems like a never ending thing...not sure if i would get holidays for my wedding, i have a project release thats coming up...phulllllleeeease, i need sometime off...havent applied for my leaves yet. so long...catch ya sooooon....

i wish i had another additional 10 hours everyday ! off late i've been into too many things and sorry for not posting. will make it up in a few days, till then thats it for now :)

does ne one know the story of the movie Quo Vadis ? wot does it mean ? just remembered that name from my childhood...

what does it take a human being to stay focused on a relationship ? is it just the rings exchanged on an engagement ? well thats what nearly more than half of the entire human race thinks !

well i am back after a very brief engagement ceremony. all my friends and close family circle were there. sweets and authentic bangalore snacks created a perfect background for the function. rings got exchanged and all of us lost in smiles and greetings.

i am a flop when it comes to romance and matter of love. but i am trying my best and am finding it hard. well its the first time for her too. so that way its ok. just feel kinda old for all this. i never had a chance when i wanted to, but i got it when i dont want to...so its a new experience and i am loving every bit of it.

so many reasons and so many steps just to bring two people together. it sounds true the words of Amy Bloom, "Marriage is not a ritual or an end. It is a long, intricate, intimate dance together and nothing matters more than your own sense of balance and your choice of partner" !!!

the best time of the year has always been summer for me. be it the pay hike or the fresh cool water lemon...ahhh i just love it. i've been awaiting my salary hike letter and it seems to take forever to reach me. coz i've placed lotsa bet on this hike. thats fine with me as long as there is no cut in my current salary ;)

that apart...i have been busy, dont know busy in what ? must be busy in thoughts that i am getting married. have bought a diamond studded ring to my fiancé and gotta buy myself some clothes and stuff. did u know the dates already ? well here it goes, the engagement in on the 6th of April 2006 and the wedding has been scheduled to be around the first week of June this year in Bangalore.

just get married people...its getting to be more fun ! so then what exactly is the flavor of the season ?

wisps of the summer winds,
hand in hand, couples and rings,
smiles and wedding bells ding,
yes, its summer and weddings !

just checkout this blog.

however the charges were dropped...what the hell !

cry my beloved india !
let your tears fill the rivers and lakes,
let the emotions flow to soothe the pain,
let sufferings end and let it give life
to those in need.

its kinda crazy to see people fight over water.
she is neither mine nor yours. she is wisp of
life, too much and you loose in her emotion of love,
too less and yet you loose in her fury of love.

World Water Day, please conserve water !

introducing...the better half of my life !

yes people, i've found my love. after a pretty long long wait, its time i get things to book. i am to get married in the next coupla months. oh boy, its kind adventurous...you ask why ?

well, someone from some far away land, meets someone from yet another far away land, talks for 30 mins flat, decide to get married. how strange can things get ? whoever said life aint worth anything without adventure, was probably right. shall i call it a mere coincidence...i donno.

she likes me...she likes me not...yeah she likes me...so me starting something new in my life. people say "Shaadi ka laddo aisa, jo khaye woh pachtaye, jo na khaye woh bhi pachtaye", translated to "Marriage is like a sweet dish, you eat it or not, you suffer anyways." i donno, i want to take a raw experience of how marriage is gonna be and how things are gonna get going. married ppl...hold on to your smiles.

i blog my everyday life here...you are gonna read about lot more things happening :) stay tuned !

what happens when things get cranky ? i go to sleep !
what happens when it gets hot in bangalore ? it rains !

it chilled out bangalore for a while...what a night yesterday, roaring thunderstorms in bangalore when its starting summer ? i woke up sometime when it was dark and just sat by the window to see it just pour and pour like crazy just for the night ! Felt like going out in the rain and then remembered that i had a meeting next morning and did not want a leaky nose in front my manager..he he he...

summer brings alive my old memories of school days. we used to get summer holidays and we played in water all day long and we used to forget about school and homework and teacher...boy i used to hate school ! then my mom would come calling for me and get scoldings from her for having played in water...i miss those days. but mom still scolds me if i get to water for long. i get this feeling of how important the childhood is. but anyway, summer is something that everyone must have fun !

I have begun on a journey to more understand people and what makes them they. No, i don’t plan to be a philanthropist...but i just am keying in, my view of things.

all this while since i started my first job when i was 23 (thats when i actually felt like a more mature man, mature in thought that is) till now when i hitting on 30, i always was kinda solitary and was happy being myself and just enjoying every second of being me. In a way i kinda feel lucky, but don’t know how long its gonna last. in spite of all this luck and happy being me and all that crap, more than anything i realized i want to be in a relationship, i want be close to a person, i want the person to be there only for me. my friends are gonna be there when i need them, but as they say, u become wise with grey hairs, i understood that, "that" person can only be my life partner.

Its kinda gooey feeling, everything i do, everything i don’t want to do, is all planned. Just like the performance rating given by my company, they have it all decided and just as a formality, they ask for our feedback. bullsh*t...i just want to break free and go out and see every aspect of human life. its easy said than done. Every person finds solace in doing what they like to do and i am pretty much happy the way i am and the way i live my life. thats it. make people around you happy, give them love...enjoy what life has to give, travel around the world see every place on this island we cant get out of !

Our life is not even a blink on the cosmic scale of things. If we're on this earth for no other reason but to procreate, why should i go against nature ? why do people hook on to their dear lives, trying to make ends meet, trying to make peace, fighting over land, lady and lard ? in a more humanistic perspective, i think its just something that we do to pass time. don’t u think so ? we got to do something ...

i think all the great people out there, who have understood what life actually is, have given up on all things and have become masters in their field, trying to make the best of what the human life has to offer. in essence, putting in effort to make mundane people understand what Life actually is all about and contribute to the mankind...okie, womankind too ;)

I might speak less but still i can never think of being away from people. Its kinda complicated man...i like to be alone, i want people to be there with me. what the heck...i am gonna get married soon and make as much babies as she can. i want to do so many things, i dont have much time...well i have started on doing everything atleast once ;)

" Let every man be master of his time
Till seven at night: to make society
The sweeter welcome, we will keep ourself
Till supper-time alone: while then, God be with you! "
-MACBETH (Act 3, Scene 1)

The night sky and the universe remains, till date, an amazing thing beyond my imagination. They are a nursery for my infant interest, that i love to pursue. Have been looking out for an eye to view these galactic giants. Check out this pic:

Cataloged as NGC 2359 or the Thor's Helmet is a stellar nebula as pictured in the NASA portal. The whole view of mankind is a strange phenomenon, the whole sky, the universe in its entirety is like a picture frozen in time. We people are nothing but just a figment of emotions and life.

Such celestial events go beyond words with the ever wondering moist eyes trying to quench the curiosity of an insignificant human on a super cooled star, we call Earth !

i found this survey and it took me 18 mins and 42 seconds to finish it ! check it out !

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Vikram Shekhar
Birthday:	06 November 1977
Birthplace:	Bangalore
Current Location:	Bangalore
Eye Color:	Brown
Hair Color:	Dark Brown....mmm....kinda black
Height:	humbly 6feet
Right Handed or Left Handed:	rightie
Your Heritage:	i live in basavanagudi
The Shoes You Wore Today:	reebok brown shoes...but the lace of my right shoe is cut and tied not to be snapped.
Your Weakness:	i just cant say a god damn NO ! oops i just did....he he
Your Fears:	my secrets
Your Perfect Pizza:	italian deep crust topped with flowing cheese, jalapenos, oninons, tomatoes, olives, oregano seasonings. make that fresh and hot with coke on rocks !
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	get married and have twin babies :)
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	hows u doin
Thoughts First Waking Up:	whos gonna clean my car ????
Your Best Physical Feature:	overall...its a package..
Your Bedtime:	10pm or if i had a pizza it would be 11.30 pm
Your Most Missed Memory:	my college days ! wish i can go back in time...
Pepsi or Coke:	C for the O for the K for the E....COKE
MacDonalds or Burger King:	You dont get veggie burgers in Mac...do u ? i'll pick BK
Single or Group Dates:	Singles please
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Lipton Ice Tea...mmmm...smells good, but havent tasted it...he he he
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolate...vanilla sucks !
Cappuccino or Coffee:	cappuccino.....this survey is not for me, coffee is not my cup of tea...what !
Do you Smoke:	NO
Do you Swear:	nopes...
Do you Sing:	yeah i do when i am alone, like in the loo
Do you Shower Daily:	havent skipped a shower daily in all of my lives...
Have you Been in Love:	yeah
Do you want to go to College:	yeah
Do you want to get Married:	yeah
Do you belive in yourself:	yeah
Do you get Motion Sickness:	no
Do you think you are Attractive:	yeah
Are you a Health Freak:	very much....how much cal did i burn just by typing for this survey...
Do you get along with your Parents:	i love them
Do you like Thunderstorms:	nothing amazing than the fury of mother nature...
Do you play an Instrument:	i used to
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	boo hoo hooo...somebody stop this survey...I DONT DRINK ALCOHOL
In the past month have you Smoked:	next question please
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	i love to try it once...have got a chance to do it...
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	in my earnst knowledge...NO
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	not in the past month
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	nopes
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	nopes
In the past month have you been on Stage:	yeah babe...i have
In the past month have you been Dumped:	i wasnt with anyone to be dumped...i already am a trash can
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no boss !
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	yeah....lotsa pens...Shhhhhh....
Ever been Drunk:	NO
Ever been called a Tease:	YEAH
Ever been Beaten up:	i dont have any bones in my body, have been beaten up royally by my big brother
Ever Shoplifted:	would kill someone who did that
How do you want to Die:	i want all the people i know in my life to be around me...morning 11 am after having a glass of milk from my mom. i want to feel death in all my consciousness and remember all my days from my childhood. Goodbye life ! see you soon...
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	i am an all grown up adult male human...so i have no idea what do i want to be !
What country would you most like to Visit:	Paris...i love Paris...wanna visit the pyramids though ! havent been to either places...will visit in my life time...am i drunk ?
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	light brown
Favourite Hair Color:	combo of brow black and red
Short or Long Hair:	long
Height:	lets see....how about 5feet and 5 inches
Weight:	who cares...as long as she does not disappear in thin air !
Best Clothing Style:	tight jeans...high heals and a short t-shirt...boy...that killer dressing !
Number of Drugs I have taken:	Z.E.R.O
Number of CDs I own:	never counted....most of them from my friends
Number of Piercings:	two
Number of Tattoos:	none...how i wish i had one !
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	no time to regret...nothing to, in fact !
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Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next?

...
Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

...
Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

~Switchfoot

a man's first love is something that gonna last for a long time. i just got my first love, my new car, the fiesta. its a cool car, drives silently and boy what a look the babe has, makes heads turn. it becomes more a part of myself each time i get behind the wheel. but she sure does come with a price tag, a price for every bit of her.

its gonna be a week since i got the car and havent got a chance to zooom away. had been to lunch 'n beer with colleagues at RR restaurant on the brigade road today...yeah it was my treat for the fida car :) the food was good but was spicy to open tracks ;) but cooled off with a nice ice cream, that got me a bad cold. just am waiting to hit the long roads later in the weekend.

oh boy...i surely am on a high !

was all enthu about getting my new car today and it all went to drains. chain of events in the wrong place did account for it. had a fight on the way to the showroom with a scooter guy who was yelling all names at me. i dint know how to react to it. so just passed him out. after landing at the showroom, the financier did not have the docs to give it to the showroom. and after the whole day shouting at the financier, the showroom was shut down for the day and it was like all hell broke loose at once. :(

and talk about what i am listening..."have a nice day" by jon bon jovi !

just when u wait for something, they seems to never work out and it takes its own pace. just like murphy's laws: "If anything can go wrong, it will. And in the most inopportune time."

aarrrrrgggh...